One of my biggest struggles....

There are several reasons why I decided today is the day to begin this journey to a healthier, fitter me.  I have a back injury from 2003 that I got two herniated discs from.  The doctors told me I needed to watch my weight seeing as the more weight I put on the more pressure gets put on my discs.  This is compromising my back and taking away precious time with my family when it acts up (which is become too frequent).  I want to show my girls through my actions how to lead a healthy active lifestyle instead of telling them.  After all actions do speak louder than words.  I want to be able to keep a spotless house ALL the time, play and run with my daughters, be able to lift and move things without having to ask family to help, and just live a happier, more fulfilling life.

I weighed in at 189 lbs. when I stepped on the scale, and started to freak out that I let myself get to this point, then went in got my camera took a few pictures of myself (front, back, and side) and planned on starting this journey.

I do not want to struggle with this anymore as this is one thing I have been fighting for years.  I have tried and failed many times at this.  I want to lose it now so I am not ashamed to take pictures with my girls and them be ashamed of their mommy or realize I am overweight...probably obese by most standards.

My body is God's temple and to be honest I have been doing a very VERY lousy job taking care of that temple and keeping it healthy and fit.  Now its time to change gosh dang it and push myself to be the best I can be physically, emotionally, and spiritually.  God give me the strength to stick with it and not stumble.  It's time I get my act together, suck it up and lose this excess baggage!!!

"I can do everything through him who gives me strength" Philippians 4:13

Today is my first day so lets see how I do!   I will check back and let you know how I am doing and if I have things I am struggling with.  (Cannot believe I am posting my actual weight...*sigh* if it helps me stay focused so be it)

When You Thought I Wasn't Looking...

This made me think of my mother when I was growing up.  I hope my girls will say this about me some day as well.

When You Thought I Wasn't Looking
When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you hang up my first painting on the refrigerator, and I wanted to paint another one.
When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you feed a stray cat, and I thought it was good to be kind to animals.
When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you make my favorite cake for me, and I knew that little things are special things.
When you thought I wasn't looking, I heard you say a prayer, and I believed there is a God I could always talk to.
When you thought I wasn't looking, I felt you kiss me goodnight, and I felt loved.
When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw that you cared, and I wanted to be everything that I could be.
When you thought I wasn't looking, I LOOKED....and wanted to say thanks for all the things I saw when you thought I wasn't looking..

Thanks to Connie Back